Growing up a little more.
There is always something special about the wee morning hours just before dawn. The air is quite still but chilly. The tranquillity of my surrounding only to be interrupted by the occasional cars on the highway nearby. Peace. I’m going to miss this time when the everyone is back again.
So I sit here after a thorough physical workout from having scrubbed, dusted, swept and mopped to attend to my floating thoughts inside the space of my mind.
It’s the 2nd Eid I’m spending in this country, this time around I’m more by myself. While I miss my folks, I have to say I’ve grown to accept this detachment. I still don’t know if that’s a good thing. But I choose to let it make me a stronger and more patient person, more capable of being on my own. Regardless, this Eid is a special one, for many reasons. I’ve come a long way in the span of one year. I feel more ready to face the future, as if whatever is to unfold, I’ll find my way through it as long I keep my faith strong in Allah and myself. And whatever decisions I make, I’ll be okay as long as I introspect, evaluate and stay true to myself. Things don’t always work out the way you plan them to be, but I’ve learnt they always work out to be even better than you imagined. But most importantly this Eid, I am left feeling eternally grateful for the people I’ve made close bonds with and the knowledge they’ve shared with me. I don’t think I would be the person I am today without their care. But I won’t stop here for my journey has only begun. I shall carry you all in my heart no matter the distance I travel and continue to grow so I can give back with everything I have learnt. I feel hopeful. Towards the adventure I am about to embark on and towards the things I want to do while I’m at it. ;)
The world will say that you can’t change
the way you’ve been is the way you’ll stay
But heroes are not born they’re made.
They made the choice and then they trained.
21, the marginal age by which in any country you are sure to be considered a major. 21, you are fully eligible to all the legal rights that comes with being finally considered an ‘adult’. 21, the age upon reaching, you are also held accountable for your conscious actions to harm another living creature. But most importantly, as this 21st year of my life here comes to a close, I realize the relationships you have with your parents reverse. If you didn’t see it before, by now you would know them as human beings complete with flaws and raw emotions just like yourself.
21, you accept yourself as a caregiver and embrace the dawn of real responsibility with nothing but courage and prayer for guidance.